I want lockdown to end. It’s like a constant Jekyll and Hyde thing going on: good and evil. I know why and I respect that but then I want it to be over!
God I feel like shit.
I’ve woken up feeling depressed.
It’s Sunday! It’s my bro’s birthday.
I feel emotionally shit! Why? Why are we still in ‘this’? We are still playing this game of ‘lockdown’?
Of course I know why and I’ve written about it so many times within this book over the past six weeks. But WHY?
It’s depressing, fucking depressing. I want to go meet a friend, I want to go swimming, I want to eat in a restaurant, I want to hug people outside my immediate unit. I want to hold and kiss my new niece.
God I feel shit and depressed.
I know why this can’t end yet. 27 thousand (and this is the number we’ve been allowed to know) families in the UK alone have someone missing in their family unit, someone has been taken from them by a cruel and horrid virus.
But I want lockdown to end. It’s like a constant jekyll and hyde thing going on: good and evil. I know why and I respect that but then I want it to be over!
And then there’s a part of me that thinks “shit lockdown will end soon and how will life be then?”
We aren’t supposed to feel this amount of emotions all before we’ve gotten out of bed, ARE WE?
I wrote the above on Sunday, then today got up and put my positive pants on and rode in to Monday like .... come on - let’s have ya!! ————————————————— Lockdown is hard work emotionally 🤣 ————————————————— #lockdown #sunday #monday #depressed #positivepantson #pants #positive #positivemindset #stefbricklebank #yougotthis #mindset #cruel #death #sad #itwillbeokay #love #thankful #friends #family